Mera Khyaal…..Mera Zawaal

Mujhe intehayi tanhai ki taraf dhakelne ke baad jab wo shakhs yeh puchta hai ke mujhe kya hua hai, toh mere saare alfaaz khatam ho jaatey hain. Mere paas koi wajah, koi safaayi nahi bachi hai jissey mai apni baat pesh kar sakun, koi lafz nahi bacha jissey apni baat samjha sakun. Kyuki samjhaya sirf usey jaa sakta hai jo baat sunney ki chaahat rakhta ho, jiski aankhein apne saamne guzarne waaley sach ko dekhein. Jab nazar ko pehle se budgumaani ke pardon ne gher rakha ho, toh unmein se sachchayi ki awaaz pahunchaana mushkil hojata hai. Meri khwaisho ki roshni abhi itni tez bhi nahi, ke uske ujaale kisi k nazar ke pardey gira dein.

Meri awaaz unn pardon se takra kar laut aati hai, aur mere hee kaanon mein goonjti rehti hai. Har baar apni baat saamne rakhna, aur har baar haar jaana, iske ilaawa zindagi ka aur sabab hee kya hai.

Ab dil saare faisley pehle se hee jaanta hai, jaanta hai k saarey farmaan uskey khilaaf jaari hongey, saari baatein meri in sab baaton ko kaat deingi, aur ab is nafee k aalam mein jeena meri zarurat hogyi hai.

Ab koi mausam dil ko khush gawaar nahi karta, koi saaz dil ko bahaal nahi karta. Saare rang aur khyal sirf inkaar ki surat lekar aatey hain. Dil ko har waqt uss dastak ka intezaar rehta hai, jo aakey sabhi rangon ko siyaah kardegi, aur sabhi chiragon ko bujha degi.

 

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